Binary Brain

July 5, 2020

Projections, Predictions, and Children (Covid-19)

Filed under: life — binarybrain @ 18:42

We’re living in a crazy world. The way that media – social and old – are treating Covid-19 is like watching my 3 and 4 year old argue over the existence of zombies. There are micro and macro level causalities. Micro-causalities can be relatively simple and easy to follow. Macro-causalities quickly become complicated and links between stages in causality can be impossible to follow, let alone predict. The Covid-19 discussion is mostly about macro-causalities. We shouldn’t be discussing things in terms of surely this or certainly that. Those statements are not only wrong, but impossible. All of the predictions were false and, yet, we keep discussing them and prognosticating about the future as if we will be more right this time than last time. I struggle to exist today in a world that has seen the results of bad projections and bad speculation. Remember Trump couldn’t possibly win?

We are manipulating – and often ruining – people’s lives by developing projections and using said projections to coerce people into a given set of behavior. It is hubris pure and makes me think that we really are living amongst children.

September 23, 2019

Wishing Wisdom Didn’t Require Age

Filed under: Uncategorized — binarybrain @ 20:34

This should be and could be such a long post. It won’t be.

Wisdom requires age. Why? Because at 16, you don’t know anything about anything. You don’t have the flow of time and experience to understand that knowledge – true knowledge – does not come from an academic, nor demand. It is not authoritative. Well, most knowledge isn’t authoritative because it can be wrong. It may be wrong. At 16, you don’t know this because all of those things which you know and are sure are true haven’t had the time to be proven false.

We live in an age that rejects religion and replaces it with authoritative knowledge. Inductive knowledge about how the future will turn out.

Rarely is this true. And only time teaches this.

Too bad evolution didn’t grant us the ability to take the wisdom of the elders and transfer it to the newborn.

The last authoritative epoch of western civilization happened in the 1930s and ’40s. I hope we don’t have to live through one of those epochs again.

December 31, 2017

Goodbye 30s, Hello 40s

Filed under: life — binarybrain @ 21:41

So many things have happened over the past year and I decided that I’m going to finally take advantage of turning 40 (in a little over 3 hours) and embrace not only the new year, but a new decade in my life. My 30s were crazy and I might take some time to look back at a number of exceptional experiences. Off the top of my head, the following define my 30s:

  • Experiencing a spouse go through the agony and terror of cancer (that started my 30s a few months after turning 30).
  • Finally accepting my role and a job that I took in my early 20s (22, to be exact) and stop trying to figure out what the next best thing was going to be. I read a book by Thich Nhat Hanh that talked about living in the moment instead of in the future. Between that and watching my spouse go through cancer, I finally decided to embrace the life that I was living and try to experience it day by day, hour by hour. (Only through Grace will I ever learn to do it minute by minute.)
  • Going through a divorce. Those who have experienced it know how it is a living death. No matter the reasons (it is always complicated), divorce is like watching a car crash in slow motion. The only difference is how many fatalities there are along the way.
  • Moving to the big city from the country. Finally, I felt at home. Weird. I know. I happen to enjoy being around people most of the time – even if I don’t necessarily want to engage in a long conversation. So far, as an example of this, Manhattan continues to be my favorite place.
  • Meeting a woman who would change my life and give me four absolutely amazing kids.
  • Becoming a dad at 37 is the single biggest and most important accomplishment of my life. Children change everything. Everything. For the better. You will never be the same and I implore you to consider it. Have more than one. Have 10. You will never say that you had too many.
  • A lesson that I’ve learned in my almost-40-years that rings true tonight more than ever: you cannot predict the future. You cannot claim to know for certain how something is going to turn out. (Yes, I realize that gravity will win out no matter how many times I try to jump off the roof.) Large scale, complicated systems, however, never work the way we theorize. Our theories are summations and simplifications. Let wisdom and faith guide your days. Enjoy ever.single.day. Find something good in your experiences and stop insisting that other people do what you want them to do.

Let’s see what my 40s bring. If my 30s are any indication, it’ll be a wild, crazy ride. I promise to check in more often than I did in my 30s.

September 16, 2010

As I get older…

Filed under: consciousness,life — binarybrain @ 12:27

Last night, I lay awake after reading some passages from The Crucible of Consciousness by Zoltan Torey and after being really upset about the road I thought he was going down (that the mind/consciousness is nothing but a delayed reaction to parallel stimuli), he changed his approach (or, I simply kept listening/reading) and I think the crux is this: free will is an illusion, inasmuch as decisions are made by our brain before we are aware of them and it is conscious afterthought that produces the feeling that we were in charge all along.  The fact is that all of the parallel input and stimuli produced a reaction to multiple outcomes that we only become aware of after the corner has been turned.  This kind of makes sense.  This also made me mad.  It made me think of how ridiculous it is to think that there is then any purpose for consciousness from an evolutionary and biological standpoint.  And, if we’re going to write a whole book on consciousness, you would think there is some value to it.

Then, I started to think more about it – and because I still really haven’t finished the relevant chapter, I still don’t know what the outcome really is – and think about some of the biggest decisions I’ve made in my life and how they came to be.  I thought about all of those times where my consciousness was wrapped up in a future event over which I had no control and the only thing I could do is think through all of the potential moves to make, like a chess player thinks when evaluating the moves of his opponent.  I thought about the situation I was in when I got married so young and how I’ve beaten my head against the wall about that choice.  Why the hell did I do it?  Why so young and why when you knew so little?  (And it is truly ironic to see both my wife’s and my eyes roll into the back of our heads when we contemplate other people getting married at or before – or even around – the same age we did.  Are they nuts?)  But, maybe at the time, I really had no choice.  I was conscious of the process I was going through, but completely ignorant of the potential outcome.  When I think back, I can’t find one shred of evidence that I actually was doing anything other than what my subconscious was telling me to do.  Logic played very little a role.  How could it?  I was too immature and too inexperienced to have any means to apply logical analysis to the situation.  (And, by the way, we’re not talking about maturity here.  I was very mature.  So was my wife.  With the caveat: for our age.  That caveat says it all.)

Where I was mad at Torey for even making such a ridiculous statement was when I was thinking about other situations where – especially more recently – I know that my consciousness has intervened and produced an outcome different from what my brain and behavior was telling me to do.  I think this is the key: through experience, we can remodel and realign our instinctual behavior (if that is even the way of putting things) so that consciousness does produce free will, but only for future events and in areas where we have already had applicable experiences.

I wonder if I’ll feel the same way after I finish the book.  Torey is in the middle of taking Dennett to task for his mechanistic view of the rise and existence of consciousness.  I’m surprised I agree with him.  Usually, I tend to side with Dennett on these issues – for reasons I don’t totally understand.  I also realized that David Stove has a lot to say about this topic tangentially.  We are so stuck on the idea that consciousness has an evolutionary purpose and that evolutionary theory should enable us to describe it, but Stove is quick to point out how limited our evolutionary theory even is in describing the process it is named after.  Interesting.

July 4, 2010

The intersect between material and fantasy

Filed under: consciousness — binarybrain @ 13:51

I was challenged, and challenged hard last weekend about my insistance that the mind/consciousness is really nothing more than the material.  There was a lot of drinking involved, so I’m not sure how much of the conversations were coherent – but, in reality, that does not matter.  I’ve known great one-off thought to come from a night of dillusion.

What I did struggle with was all of this talk of non-local effects.  There is a piece of quantum mechanics that Bell calls the no-go theorem.  Loosely, it says that quantum theory breaks down locally or action-at-a-distance is wrong (if there is a physicist out there who can help me make a more coherent statement, please tell me).  The question is, however, how does this actually effect cognition/thought/consciousness?  I argue that the only thing it does is complicate any modeling we would try to do of the brain.  In the situation where we would ever try to duplicate a brain, I propose we would still never end up with the same consciousness in both brains because of uncertainty (physical) and the odd way in which external forces can impact local events (action-at-a-distance).  We hardly understand these things, but if our experiments are correct, we know that there is a level of uncertainty permeating every physical event and knowing the current state of a system will only provide us with a rough idea of the outcome on the other side of time.

Perhaps this is where fantasy comes in.  Complications in consciousness arise when we go beyond the physical input and stimulus that drives much of our behavior (by behavior, I simply mean activities) and there is where the development of fantasy comes in.  In order to plug the holes created by an inconsistent stream of physical stimuli, we have developed the mechanism of fantasy to fill in those holes.  What role fantasy plays and how it permeates our conscious life, is a whole other topic – but it is one I find thoroughly fascinating.  Does a Buddhist meditating feel the universe outside of local consciousness?  In two ways, this may be possible: fantasy or non-local action.  We could say that non-local action is more real than fantasy and therefore, we hope that this is really what Buddhists experience.  We could say that… but it isn’t necessarily better than fantasy.  Fantasy may be no less real than stimulus driven consciousness and we may find that it is the cornerstone to a new evolutionary development underway in the human brain.

I really have no idea.  As a pseudo materialist, I hope that the concept of fantasy will see more research and development, as I think it holds more promise to explaining what is really going on when we have religious experiences (which I believe are as real as a physical experience – just that our description of it is limited because language has always been closely tied to physical occurrences and therefore makes it difficult to convey a religious experience).  Any ideas?  Anyone?

June 7, 2010

Whence thought when we’re automatons?

Filed under: Uncategorized — binarybrain @ 22:13

One issue I’m struggling with is, whence thought when our brains (and thus, the mind) are hybrid structures of parallel computing and sensory devices?

As I was brushing my teeth, a few significant thoughts poured into my head that overshadowed all of the other minor quibbles attempting to take front and center space in my consciousness.  In a computer, you can assume that anything going on is a reaction to some input.  In this case, the input was varied and chaotic; the vibration of the toothbrush against my teeth, the glare of the light off the mirror and the smudge in my glasses from my dog licking my face a few minutes beforehand.  Which one of those inputs, though, triggered the question of whence random thought?

I really don’t get it.  Dennett makes very strong arguments in favor of losing the puppeteer of our mind and accept a consciousness that is really a type of survival versioning system – i.e. where many trains of random thoughts occur throughout the day and it is always the strongest one that takes hold at the forefront of our consciousness.  I agree with him because all of the neuroscience of today (2010) seems to point in that direction.  But, I still don’t get the logic of the randomness that is my mind and my consciousness.  If my brain were truly nothing more than a complex machine, then the logic of my thought would either be rarely consistent or always consistent.  And I know from introspection that neither is the case for me.  My consciousness is somewhere in the middle.  In the right environment, it is extremely singular and focused and in another, completely chaotic.  How does chaotic complexity that is the neural network of our brain make for semi-logical, semi-consistency?

I find this whole issue troubling.

May 27, 2010

Tell my I’m wrong, The soul is dead

Filed under: consciousness — binarybrain @ 22:36

I finally finished Dennett’s book, Consciousness Explained, and am stricken by the thought that he’s so right that he can’t possibly be wrong.  I graduated with my BA in Philosophy many years ago and I remember a friend asking me what I find to have been the most important learning experience I’d pass along to others.  Knowing you don’t know shit. I’m well aware of how vulgar that may seem, but that is what you learn in philosophy.  Every semester, I had a new series of classes; a new onslaught of ideas and each of those topics, those philosophers, those coherent arguments were so very right!  Only after having 10 epiphanies was it that I started to realize that nuance does not mean correctness and infallible argument does not imply probable premises.

But, this time, with Dennett, it feels so right.  Essentially Dennett rewrites the book (for me) on conscious experiences as an entity separate from my biological consciousness.  Instead of a man behind the curtain (or puppet, whichever you wish), the man is a chaotic semblance of the strongest smell wins.  The mind and consciousness is nothing but a series of gates that has evolved to introspection and self referentialism.  I don’t want to demean or diminish Dan’s arguments (may I call him Dan?), but in essence, our consciousness is a culmination of all of the internal conversations we’ve had with ourselves since we were born.  It is the structure of our experience and predilections.

My god.  That’s so damn easy!  (And, I don’t wish to do Dan any injustice in implying it was easy to arrive at that conclusion or that he thinks it is any less of a miracle than we know consciousness to be.  Ahem… not magical miracle, but this-is-so-friggin-unlikely-from-a-mathematical-perspective-that-I’m-amazed-it-exists-at-all.)  If we could all just agree to start with that premise – i.e. whatever consciousness is, it isn’t in the ether and it is certainly not some spiritual globule that we can neither understand nor study – it would likely lead to so many radical discoveries that we may, indeed, learn to fly.  Without planes.

In the next few weeks, I’m hoping to actually do a bit of a summary of what I’ve read so that I can put onto paper what I’ve learned.  I’ve read Consciousness Explained before, but I’ve never read it with this type of interest nor understanding.  I don’t think Dan would state he’s discovered “it” and I think there’s a lot to be dissected and maybe changed, but he has got me on the right path.  We’ll see where it leads from here.

March 31, 2010

Understanding Consciousness, What’s Next?

Filed under: consciousness — binarybrain @ 22:52

Tonight, as I was pondering the problems of multiple dimensions and proton collisions at CERN, it struck me, what would actually happen if we understood consciousness? I have always been suspicious of ideas like a Grand Unified Theory that the likes of Stephen Hawking promoted because it assumes that there is an ultimate end to knowledge.  And, for some reason, that just doesn’t jive with my way of thinking.

History proves not only what the winners were willing to write about their enemies, but it also shows that knowledge evolves.  Every time we humans figure something out, a new door opens to another set of more complex questions.  It’s like that drawing of the snake eating its own tail.  Knowledge begets questions and questions beget knowledge… all the while my gut grows because I can’t stop eating these cookies while reading this amazing book on black branes.  Ergo, knowledge begets gut aches, too!

I think we’re growing our collective knowledge by leaps and bounds today and you can see this when we look at the momentum of technological change.  In a few days, Apple’s iPad will be released upon the US market and as an observer and obsessive user of technology, it looks like a revolutionary device – much the way the iPhone was and is.  These devices make contact and quick access to important (and obscure) data so easy that a few weeks ago, as I was flying form New York to LA, I learned why popcorn pops because the plane had inflight wifi.  (Now that’s a life altering tidbit of info that was worth the $10 login fee.)  In reality, that little bit of quick, efficient search and seizure of knowledge is analogous to accessing the random and long-term memory that makes the human brain so special.  Things in our world have progressed to the point where we can supplement that massive file-drawer, calculator thingy with über connected devices that let us look up things we’ve forgotten or didn’t even know.  (All assuming the information we access is even accurate – but that’s another problem.)  It doesn’t end there.  Had I really desired something more obscure, I could have gotten on Skype or AIM (or whatever the kids are using these days) and looked up some of my other pointy headed friends to see if they could help solve my latest knowledge crisis, how do airplane toilettes work and why the hell do they use blue water? I could have not only accessed other biological filing cabinets, but utilized their ability to access the non-volatile memory that we know as the net, thus, using a loose sort of distributed processing approach to solve a problem or answer a question

And this is just the tip of the iceberg.  Who knows what the folks in AI are really doing with artificial brains.  As the bitches (my two female dogs – no, really, they are bitches…) slurped down their last bit of ground up cow heart, I continued my thoughts of CERN and said to myself, let’s say we do figure out how consciousness works.  Then what? Really.  What then?

I don’t think it is that easy, though.  I think it will follow the trend of history that I mentioned above.  Some day, we will open that door to reconstructing the brain with hard wires and solder and then suddenly realize that in the process of commanding such an understanding of how the mind works, we can move objects with our thoughts.  We wonder how the mind works now, think of the questions that will come up when people are stabbing each other with forks from across a restaurant with the power of sheer thought!

March 27, 2010

Parallel Recursive/Revisionary Consciousness?

Filed under: consciousness — binarybrain @ 10:33

This is a topic that I hope gets a beating over time.  Dennett has floated this idea that consciousness is really a massive parallel process by which the loudest contemplative state wins wherein the master puppeteer ceases to exist.  I doubt I am giving his theory justice in that statement.  Right now, though, that’s how I view it.

So, this morning, in the shower, I was thinking, why do some thoughts win out over others? Why does a given string of contemplation take the place of another more logical thread?  In particular, I was daydreaming about a woman I met a year ago and how intrigued I was with her behavior, thought process, ideas, etc.  In brief, I was infatuated with the idea I had of her.  There is no possible way to know if my concept of this person was close to the real thing (even after a third of my life spent in a serious relationship with one person, I hardly know her, so how could I possibly know this person whom has occupied all of a day’s worth of time in dialogue), but for whatever reason, that daydream/thread of thought beat out all the other ideas and thoughts cruising through my head.  I had to finally talk myself out of the daydream and go onto thoughts that I felt would be more responsible and relevant thoughts for the day before me.

I still don’t understand, though, why that daydream took precedence over other ideas that could have occupied my mind.  Was it the connection with emotion?  Was it some suppressed hope for attention from someone similar?  Why do we fantasize?

I consider myself a relatively logical individual with a drive to think and focus my thoughts on things that matter and yet I can become completely preoccupied and engrossed in irrelevant and impossible ideas and it takes the power of persuading some part of my consciousness to go onto other things.  This process is what makes Dennett’s idea of how consciousness works so plausible.  If there truly were a master puppeteer in my head who really controlled the thoughts and was the spirit behind the machine then the idea of streamS of consciousness wouldn’t make sense.  Nor would the fact that I can actually have one conversation in my head that attempts to overtake center stage from another.  I can’t find the particular page in Consciousness Explained, but Dennett relays the statement of another philosopher/psychologist (can’t remember which): when I’m thinking hard about something, the only real language that comes to mind that would describe what is going through my head is “go… you can do it… keep thinking harder…” Isn’t that funny, I thought?  That’s exactly what is going through my head when I’m trying to find the solution to a complex problem.  The actual language content I can come up with to describe the situation is a cheer and not the content of the process that is being used to solve the problem.  Delicious.

March 26, 2010

Language as a Barrier

Filed under: consciousness — binarybrain @ 20:59

No, I don’t mean with regards to communicating with others.  First, a word of information, I’m in the middle of reading the following books:

Consciousness Explained, Daniel Dennett
The Synaptic Self, Joseph LeDoux (Reading 2nd Time)
The Mind and the Brain, Jeffrey M. Schwartz & Sharon Begley
The Little Book of String Theory, Steven S. Gubser

This gives great flavor to what I’m thinking about right now.  On the back burner are various books by Aristotle, Aquinas, David Stove, C.S. Lewis, Brian Doherty, Ayn Rand, etc.  I try to keep a rotation of about 4-6 books going.  (As you can imagine, I get easily bored.)

This thought, however, is greatly impacted by Dennett and a statement he makes on p 301 of the 1991 hardcover version of Consciousness Explained:

“Language infects and inflects our thought at every level.  The words in our vocabularies are catalysts that can precipitate fixations of content as one part of the brain tries to communicate with another.”

That is seriously profound.  Think about that.  If your language were limited to 5000 words, what kinds of thoughts would you have and would there be fundamental limitations to what thoughts you could have?  I’ve been thinking about this problem for quite some time, as I am fluent in two languages and have a very rudimentary understanding of another few.  Because I have command of well over 800,000 words because of the combined vocabulary of the base two languages, does that make me able to think of more than someone who is limited to 5,000?

Something in me questions this logic, however.  An autistic savant may be a mathematical genius and yet have no way of linguistically communicating this genius to his peers, etc.  Does this mean that language has limited him and his ability to think?  I think not.  Just because you cannot communicate something does not mean that you do not fundamentally understand it.  We can agree that communication ability is usually a sign of knowledge, but I know of many a politician who speak with full authority on topics of which they have absolutely no knowledge.  So, communication ability does not equate to knowledge and intelligence.  If that is the case, why would the converse be true?

I do know how different my thought has evolved as I have learned more words and more ways of describing a given thought, but that doesn’t mean I understand it any more than I did before having those additional concepts with which I could play and dance.  I think thoughts “precipitate fixations of content” and this is where I am at a loss to describe the process by which this would/could happen.  Dennett is very correct in pointing out the importance of language and the barriers it can impose on thought.  But, he is wrong (if my interpretation of his commentary here is correct) in assuming that it is as all infectious as he makes it out to be.  I would never say that I think in words, as it is only when I wish to communicate with someone else that the process of forming words really begins to take place (and sometimes that person with whom I am trying to communicate just so happens to be in my own head).  I think it is helpful to command a larger vocabulary, but it can also be confounding because I spend so much time on the tedium of implication instead of simply get the thought out there for others to criticize.

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